In his first television appearance after his brother's tragic death, Gjesti did not spare tears in "Goca dhe Gra".
In an interview with Ori Nebiaj, the winner of Big Brother VIP 4 revealed the difficult moment he is going through.
He says he is in a state of anxiety, despite appearing smiling in front of the public.
The gesture also added that his brother is now everywhere with him and shows this through his gestures and the way he speaks and stands.
"I'm not broken into 2-3 pieces. I'm broken into 2,000 pieces. Even though I appear smiling on camera, in video clips, on Instagram, on TikTok, because I don't want to give anyone negativity. But I'm very broken. I'm trying to get out of it. With God's help, I'll get out of it very soon. In these situations, only God can support you and get you through it."
I don't know how it happened. I was having fun and then this happened. After that incident, I changed completely. I changed my behavior, I changed my thoughts, I changed many things. I realized that today you are, tomorrow you are not. I knew this, but when it happened to my family, then I experienced it differently. I stopped myself from many things. That's where the anxiety started. I still have anxiety today. I suffer from it. I am broken, leaning against the wall. I appear in front of the public smiling, but I have never been broken in my life again. I am trying to maintain that kind of attitude. It has changed me a lot as a person. That situation has turned me back on the path of God. The only solution is that.
The motive I have for life is to work for my family. But the first is my main goal, to become a good person. That is the main goal. It is not the music and the fame I have made, the money I have made. Being a good person is very difficult. To improve, to not be mean-spirited. You don't even notice the money, nothing.
Two days ago I had a concert. I swear to God, when we were sharing the money with the team, looking at the money I felt anxious, my heart sank. Immediately anxious. Money doesn't make you happy. I ran home. Why couldn't I sleep! My body and heart were shaking... Anxiety.
My brother is in his place and he is safe. At first it was difficult, I thought a lot of bad things. I fell into sin. When you look at it from the other side, there is only one God.
"Memory? It's all the gestures. All the gestures. As I speak now, he spoke. Wherever I am, he is too. We were very much the same," said Gjesti.